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Monday, October 5, 2009

Growing Anxious

Monday, October 5, 2009
Sooooo, it has become very apparent that flu season is in full swing. I have read and been told about many of babies/kids getting sick. I am growing more and more anxious day-by-day about keeping Kennedy as healthy as I can keep her. I feel like sickness is our enemy and we are constantly fighting a war with it. I think I might have a slight problem - maybe. Ever since I had Kennedy I worry constantly about others around me. If I go anywhere and people begin to cough, sneeze or I hear them sniffling there nose my anxiety level goes through the roof. I almost begin to panic, especially if Kennedy is with me. It is almost as if I can see the germs come out of there mouth and float in the air waiting for Kennedy and I to inhale them in - Okay not really that dramatic, but you get what I mean. I guess you can all equate it to having the new mommy syndrome. Where you bring home your new baby and are extremely paranoid about them coming into contact with anything dirty or anyone sick. You become the hand washing Nazi overnight for about the first six weeks. This is how I feel all the time - I partly blame being a NICU Mommy for so long!

I guess when you step back and look at the big picture it is extremely scary. Kennedy is already compromised or fragile due to her Chronic Lung Disease and immobility. It is just scary as hell to think something as simple as the flue could possibly kill her. We go to Kennedy's doctor this month to get her first round of Synagis (RSV Vaccine). She will receive one shot every month until April.