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Sunday, November 8, 2009

Oh, There are Times.....

November 8, 2009
There are times that I wish I had a crystal ball. Times I wish I knew what God had planned for my precious Kennedy. Times I wish I could lay in bed all day and sob uncontrollably. Times I wish I could scoop Kennedy up and run away. Times I wish Kennedy was just like every other 15 month old.......But, there are no crystal balls and if I could see into the future and changes the hands of time I would be a millionaire.

The holiday's seem to drum up suppressed emotions. When I was pregnant with Kennedy I remember being so excited to celebrate things like; Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and Easter with her. I couldn't wait to see the expression on her face when she opened her first present, or found her first Easter egg. However, since Kennedy's birth the holiday's seem to be a time when Kennedy's disabilities are brought to the forefront. I try so hard to make everything as normal as possible, to provide my daughter with the appropriate experiences, but as time pushes forward this becomes ever so difficult.

I would do anything to change Kennedy's fate. To change her circumstances, but one thing I would never change and that is having Kennedy as my daughter.

2 comments:

Brindle said...

Stephanie, you are such a strong and great mom and woman. kennedy is lucky to have you and Brian as her parents in this world. i love you guys!!!!!!!

laura said...

Hi, Stephanie! I am Laura, your grandma's cousin Mary's daughter (we met on fourth of July) I want to tell you that you are doing a great job! I love the fact that you do everything possible to make things normal. Kennedy is a beautiful girl (inside and out). She is blessed to have you and Brian as her parents. I check your blog religiously...thanks for the updates! Love and prayers for you and your awesome family. Happy Thanksgiving!!