An Angel Earned Her Wings

Monday, January 10, 2011

Heaven has earned the most beautiful, perfect angel on Saturday at 5:30pm. Kennedy is free and watching over us from above. In typical Kennedy fashion - she has her own agenda and was sure she left this world the way she wanted too, in the arms of her momma! Kennedy had been having an amazing week after her Neurologist appointment. The Ativan really seemed to be doing the trick. Kennedy was happy and the most talkative she has ever been. She spent the night at her Grammy's and Grandpa's house on Thursday night because I had an OB appt. first thing Friday morning. My mom said Kennedy was watching bugs bunny with my dad and appeared to be in a great mood. She slept amazing that night and was up and alert Friday.

Brian and I went to pick her up from my parents around 1pm. My mom mentioned Kennedy was kind of quite Friday afternoon but was really content. We loaded her in the car and headed home. Kennedy was talking away in the backseat. We spend the rest of the afternoon cuddling with our baby, as we did each and everyday. Friday evening we laid Kennedy down in bed around 9pm and Brian and I proceeded with our nightly routine and climbed into bed about 9:30pm. Kennedy was sound asleep - which is very unusual. First she never goes to sleep before midnight and secondly she never falls asleep without us in bed. I didn't think anything of it - I climbed into bed grabbed her hand and fell asleep. We woke up around 9 and Kennedy was still asleep. A little peculiar but again I didn't put much thought into it. I just figured she has had a rough couple weeks (excluding Tues. Jan 4 - Thurs. Jan 7) so I assumed she was trying to catch up on some much needed sleep.

My parents came over Saturday around 11:00 to help us start setting up the baby's room. I periodically poked my head into our room to see how she was doing as sometimes she wakes up and just lays around. She was still sleeping so I let her be. She finally woke up around 1pm. My dad held her for about an hour while we finished up the room. Then I gave her a bath and made her all fresh. After her bath her and I sat in our favorite recliner for a couple of hours while she laid quietly on my chest. She became kind of congested so I suctioned her and laid her down figuring I would just change up her positioning.

We were having a BBQ that evening and Kennedy's godparents (Derek and Jen) and our other really close friends Andy and Sarah showed up around 4:30pm. Brian began cooking dinner as i sat next to Kennedy on the couch with my girlfriends talking about Kennedy (as usual - it is one of my favorite things to do). I got up to show Sarah the progress on the baby's room and my dad called me back into the living room because he wanted me to hand him Kennedy. I picked Kennedy up and passed her off to my dad. As soon as my dad got her he made a comment that he didn't think she was breathing. I grabbed her out of his arms and the rest is history....The amazing thing was that she was fine while she was laying on the couch sating in the high 80's. She was waiting to be in our arms where she was most comfortable and at peace. There was no struggle or fight. She was at peace.

Kennedy left this world when she was good and ready. She was tired and put up one hell of a fight. She was sure to leave this world in the presence of the most important people in her life, her Mom, Dad, Grammy, and Grandpa! After her passing I held her on my chest in her favorite position and she looked like the most perfect beautiful angel I had ever seen. She was amazingly beautiful and was at peace.